Saturday, September 27, 2003

Info Grey
Your Heart is Grey

What Color is Your Heart?
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Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange
darkness and sadness lurk about you.

What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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WOW you're the bigest loser I'v ever seen! Don't
worry we'll get along just fine!!!

Are you a loser?
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You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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You represent... hope.
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.

What feeling do you represent?
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My babble 9/27/03
hi. i'm not so happy right now. so. yeah. last night made me kind of upset, and in some inctances, less than most, it sticks with me for a while. so i have nothing much to say. i'm not excedingly happy enough to right somthing entertaing. so bye.

Friday, September 26, 2003

my babble 9/26/03
hello! what is up? nothing new much here. ohhh! ezcept one thing! i have a new friend! and he reads this so he knows i'm talking about him :) hehheh. i wont say his name for privacys sake, but he said that i was a "refreshing difference" .... i think i will take that as a complement. :P YAY for me. i like new friends. new friends are good. expesially when on saturday you went to homecomming and had a very nice girl tell you that you scared her... :( i told her that i was a nice person and that i wasn't going to hurt her... which i wasn't... but this girl is INCRDIBLY shy... and i think the fact that i am nutzo and so forward embarrised her or made her nervous around me, i think she would rater be able to predict what i was going to do...HA! like THAT could happen.only unpredictably people can predict what i'm going to do by watching me not do something then doing it after they thought i was going to do it when they already knew i was going to do it in the first place even though i did something they didn't know i was going to do. and only unpredictable people understood that sentanse. so. my new friend. yes. i like new friends. you know what makes me sad? sakra pettels. they make me sad. really sad. really really sad. it's sad how much they make me sad. oh, no, sakra pettels. they make me sad. really sad. really really sad. it's sad how much they.... any way. ah yes. my loving parents. my loving parents love to ignore me. i say something. they hear nothing. yup. i feel speical. but enough of my issues, how are you? the purple beast next to me will not stop saying "never again". oy. ohhhh... i'm listing to rammstien. his voice is soooo sexy. ahhhhh, yes. oh! don't tell Lu-Lu i said that! he'd get mad. i think his voice is sexy too, but i can't hear his voice right now, so , he he, i listen to other sexy voices. thats not wrong, is it? i mean, i don't love rammstien, so it's ok to think his voice is sexy with no emotional feelingness behind it, right? cuz i live Lu-Lu and i think his voice is sexy, and his body, and everything else... so thats even better... so i'm not wrong, right? he he... he. i have no clue. i'm delusional. so you should tell me what you think. he >_<' you know whats funny? (yes my new friend, i'm making fun of you) my new friend thinks i'm pretty and he hasn't even seen me... for all he knows i could have a scare on the chin that looks like someone smashed a tomatoe on my face... do you think that could be? or do you think i'm making this up all as part of an evil plan to make fun of him? hohoho.... i wonder... or maybee i'm just plain ugly, or mayby i have horrible acne, or one of my eyes is lower than the other by exacly 5 cm... hmmmm... i wonder... or perhaps i'm the most beautiful girl in my school, and i'm takeng classes with dyansty modeling and are 2nd in the class. or... maybe i'm making ALL of this up and i'm completely normal looking. totally avrage. nothing speical. hummm. makes you wonder... doesn't it? thats all for now...

except i promised you a STUPID QUESTION OF THE WEEK!!!!!
for friday september 26 the STUPID QUESTION OF THE WEEK isssssssss..... when you have to go to the bathroom really bad, from both exits, can you do one with out doing the other? expecially, can you crap without peeing? when you seriously have to go? it's harder than it seems. try it. really. like i said STUPID QUESTION OF THE WEEK. hence the STUPID.

bye now

Thursday, September 25, 2003

Dream, the third of The Endless, you are in charge of the Dreaming, all imagination and creativity, everyone knows your beautiful realm, but none truly understand it. You are dark and%2
Dream, the third of The Endless, you are in charge
of the Dreaming, all imagination and
creativity, everyone knows your beautiful
realm, but none truly understand it. You are
dark and brooding, creative, and spend a lot of
time by yourself, just thinking. You are almost
as serious as Destiny, but not quite. Everyone
is enchanted by you, but you keep them all at a
distance, even when you shouldn't.

Which Endless are you?
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my babble 9/25/03
why hello! i have recently made my own quiz called "what idiotic phraze should you say?" it, sadly , is not to be posted yet, but it is comming soom to psychotic blog near you. (namely this one) i'm painting flowers in watercolor in my painting class (go figure). and my teacher was showing us tecniques. most of which i already know considering i've been painting in water color for years now. anywaay, she says, "now i'm going to show you a tecnique that i just learned this summer, and i haven't had much time yet to practice." she then pulled out a straw and began to explain how you put a drop of paint on the paper, and blow it with the straw... yes. she JUST learned this. i have been doing this sense i was 2 and painting retarted volcanos and making the lava explode like that. this is new to her. i'm not saying shes stupid, she's a great teacher really, and shes a good artist too, it's just, where has she been the last century? every child in america knows how to do that. ok. enough of that. i had coffee today. COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE!!!!!! ohhhhhh..... :( Lu-Lu.... i miss my Lu-Lu....
Hey, anyway, i went and saw my psycholigist today, and i took a coupple tests to see what defects i had in my brain, and i've got the list right here: SCHIZOTYPAL: A type of personality characterized by unusual patterns of speech and behavior and by social withdrawal. and: BIPOLAR: A form of depressive disease that characteristically involves cycles of depression and elation or mania. Sometimes the mood switches from high to low and back again are dramatic and rapid, but more often they are gradual and slow.

Both phases of the disease are deleterious. Mania affects thinking, judgment, and social behavior in ways that may cause serious problems and embarrassment. For example, unwise business or financial decisions may be made when an individual is in a manic phase. Depression can also affect thinking, judgment, and social behavior in ways that may cause grave problems. For example, it raises the risk of suicide. Bipolar disorder is not as prevalent as some other forms of depressive disorders but it is often a chronic recurring condition. and: MANIA: An abnormally elevated mood state characterized by such symptoms as inappropriate elation, increased irritability, severe insomnia, grandiose notions, increased speed and/or volume of speech, disconnected and racing thoughts, increased sexual desire, markedly increased energy and activity level, poor judgment, and inappropriate social behavior. A mild form in mania that does not require hospitalization is termed hypomania. Mania that also features symptoms of depression ("agitated depression") is called mixed mania. DEPRESSION: An illness that involves the body, mood, and thoughts, that affects the way a person eats and sleeps, the way one feels about oneself, and the way one thinks about things. ( this one happens to be the least complicated).

isn't that fun? thats me!!!! i like the word schitzophrinia more than i like schitzotypal, but oh well. whats done is done. the purple beast has nothing to say, he is just sitting quietly beside me, stareing at me blankly. i really have nothing too interesing to say today. i'm in that mood where bipolar comes in and takes me out of that mania state, you know? hmmmm.... this bores me. not writing, just not being manic. it's dull. i was earlyer today. pooie. well i will go now. and guess what? every week i am going to give you a stupid question to think about, and we are going to call it: the stupid question of the week! tomorrow it will come to you... so be there.hehe. it's a good one.

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

Season = Summer
You're Most Like The Season Summer ...

Whoa.... Passionate eh ?? Typically you're a fiery,
zesty dominant person. As the hottest season,
you certainly ooze Sex appeal. You have
confidence which draws people to you, and you
have the makings of a good leader.
However sometimes your exterior is stronger then
you are and so you scare people off before they
can get close.

Well done... You're the most memorable of seasons

?? Which Season Are You ??
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<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( NEW!!! Anime Pics )

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Nihilist Bear
Nihilist Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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The ULTIMATE personality test
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You're goin' down! FOR MURDER!
Please rate if you liked!

If you're a goth please visit
groups.msn.com/gothicteensoftheworld and join
up cause it rules!

What Would You Go to Jail For? (Many outcomes)
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regular, plain old sex-- boring to some, yet you
seem to love it. hey, do whatever pleases you!
(and of course your significant other)

What type of SEX do You enjoy?
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My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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  • My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Your Ideal Match from FFIV, is Cecil

    Who is yours?

  • your ideal mate is Legolas!

    Who is your Ideal Lord of the Rings (male) Mate?
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    ohhhh...oh yeah...if Lu-Lu was an elf...oh yeah

    Which green guy are YOU?

    i am legolas!!! sorry bout the pic
    My babble 9/24/03
    ok, hello. guess what. i finally got those cookies, oh yeah. they were good. a lemon one with pink sugerie frosting, and a chocolate chip one. yum. hey you know what? today i could not for the life of me remember the word for when a guy can't get arroused... it was bugging the hell out of me all day. and thats not good, i want the hell to stay there cuz thats where my hubby is. any way, back on the subject. so i was walking, and i was thinking, and i said the firt random word that came to mind. Flatulance! then i realized what i had just said and that that had absolutly nothing to do with a man not being able to get arroused. my friend that i was disscussing this with gave me the weirdest look then cracked up laughing, and so did i. i swear we laughed for 8 minuets. she then said "he's abstanint because he flatulant!". for the reason we were trying to remember this word was to come up with a good (or any) reason why this person we were talking about was abstanint. so we continued to laugh. then it started to get on our nerves that we couldn't remember the damned word, so we went searching for our sience teacher that was the smartest of them all, and would not make fun of us, give us a weird look, nor ask why, just tell us with the utmost seriousness. but we couldn't find her. we must have gone through 5 people before we found someone who actually knew/ could remember, the word..........impotance!!! YAY! i now know the damned word that i couldn't remember! but we also know that men are abstinant because the are flatulant. he he. you would be too.....unless...well...ahem. anyway. my husband came to talk to me last night from hell. but i didn't get to see him. that bastard. and i say that in the utmost possible way of loveing abilityness to express ones undieing devotion to ones beloved love. i luv you Lu-Lu you hot sexy bastard who left befor i even got to see you last night... bastard...whom i luv :) he he. OOHHH! and i have good news. because the bastard in my head (not Lu-Lu, the other bastard) wont tell me his name, i have decided to name him myself. his name is now...DA DUM (drum roll please) dududududududududududududududu..... Malichai! isn't that great? he still hasn't said a word to me lately. hmm. oh well, thats all for now. bye bye

    Tuesday, September 23, 2003

    if any one is reading this at ALL, send me an e-mail and tell me, otherwise it just isnt fun. you can do that on my MSN profile under the screen name Benishi, and you can find out more about me too. pleeeaaaase e-mail me if your reading this, you know, you might be the only one...
    OOOOHHHH! if you like fantacy art, and the fairy pic on the "what type of fairy are you quiz" go to:


    she is my favorit fantacy artist...Go Amy Brown!!! she inspires a lot of the paintings that i do. YaY for Amy Brown! ok, thats all.
    i do practice wicca....
    very fucked.

    what fucked version of hello kittie are you?
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    Damsels are hard to find in a modern world with
    screwy ideals! You're probably a romantic and
    you might even have a broken heart because,
    SURPRISE! The world isn't a fairy tale. I'm
    not saying you should change because that would
    be awful. Stick to your guns, be patient, and
    wait for that godamned prince-metaphor to come
    because, damnit, you deserve royalty and not
    some second-rate wannabe.

    What's Your Bedroom Personality? (For Her)
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    You're A Villian!
    You evil person, you. You have a dark side to you.
    Your destiny is world destruction/domination.
    Just so long as those pesky heros stay out of
    your way.

    What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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    blue fairy
    You like ot be alone and see everything around you.
    u like to do things alone. your a fall fairy
    but fall is a very pretty and soft time of year

    What kind of fairy are you?
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    he hehehehehehe. my eyes really are green.

    Green Eyes

    What Color Eyes Should You Have?
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    cuddle and a kiss
    cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
    close to your special someone and feel warm,
    comfortable, and needed

    What Sign of Affection Are You?
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    god you dumbass.

    What swear word are you?
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    more of my babble 9/23/03 2:09 in the morning
    i cannot fucking get to sleep. this pisses me off dearly. i have skool in the morn and i need my sleep, like i didn't' get yesterday and when i have my coffee and no sleep and sleepless nights and coffee don't mix well w/ me cuz i go nutz. that sentence was special. i have a fear of fans. and those yellow McDonalds tables. seriously. what do you think would happen if i saw a fan sitting on a yellow McDonalds table? *shudder* "never again" says the purple beast sitting next to me. i have no idea what hes talking about. have you been to hell lately? if you have, have you seen my Lu-Lu? when you go there next, tell him "hello" and "i luv you" and "don't go flirting with any demon girls (or guys, that's not right) while i'm gone". now, i'm not saying that i have anything against gays or lesbians, just to clear that up, cuz thats probably what you were thinking. i just don't want my husband flirting with men, no, he should not do that. not him. you can if you want. i don't mind. i'll love you anyway. but i will give my Lu-Lu a very odd glance if he flirts with men, no, i can't see him doing that, he is WAY, to straight. in that case, emphasize the GIRL demon part. i miss my Lu-Lu. i luv you Lu-Lu. :(

    nope. still can't sleep. thought that was the end of it, didn't' you? i don't think so. i'll ramble all night if i have to. so HA!. you cannot escape my invisible POWERS! WOOOOHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!! ok. i'm starting to see things. my dresser just moved. ummmmm... it's not supposed to
    do that, right? RIGHT???? i'm lonely. pooh. not the bear, the expression. you don't love me, do you? Lu-Lu loves me,
    something moved again. maybe it's those tasteless spiking pills... why are you running at me? i'm right here! i have a raccoon tail sitting on my shitty comp that is not connected to the internet, and i am debating hitting myself on the head with it, why? i do not know. ugh! i want sleep! and cookies. i still haven't gotten those... your probably tired of reading this damned log, so i will stop writing this damned log... damn you log... in the name of Anne... damner of all things that i cannot damn! i will now attempt to sleep once more. damn. *is damning everything while muttering angrily as i turn off lights and climb into bed*
    my babble 9/23/03---1:42 in the fricking morning...errrr.
    do you think i could do a handstand on an ostrich? (there she goes with the birds again) you know, i still want those cookies. did you know that i am a ero kappa? that means pervy water sprite in japenese. why this is, i really don't know. i just happen to be one...really. please don't tell my husband, he would wonder. and don't tell him that i am a pervy elf fancier either. because he is not an elf, and it would throw him into a jelous furry. and take it out on orlando bloom :( so, shhhhhhh! don't let him know! i luv Lu-Lu. he he. Damn! i really want those cookies! i have a cactus named Jim. he is small, but not toooooo, small, medium really. about 3 1/2 in tall i'd say, with out actually measuring. Jim says "hello" he loves you. and he wants you to pet him >_< i do. he he.i love Jim. he is a good friend. do plants such as cactuses talk to you? if so, try talking to geraniums. they are exelent conversationalists. and veary nice. blue daisys are nice too. tulups only talk about themselfs. lillies are wiled, like me, but not quite as skitso. anyway, flowers. fun to talk to. grass however never has much to say. it's boring. i should shut up now. *put those tastless spikeing pulls in her water* "ooohhh...cookies???"
    my babble 9/23/03---1:32 fricking in the morning!!!!
    err. im mad. my dad says that i'm spending to much time on the comp. what? what is this "time" you speak of? i know nothing of time. i am ETERNAL! or at least i will be... eventually... when i go to hell anyway. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHHAHAHA!!!! i mean common, it's not like i have anything better to do. all my chores and home work gets done, and i bath regularly...i had issues hooking my bra after my bath earlyer tonight... why am i telling you this? did you spik my water with tastless spiking pills? alright! who did it! it was you! wasn't it?! yes you, with the gravity defying hair! hey, sell me some of those spikless tasting pills...wait...ohhhh... *dizzy*...*spinning*...*falls on floor* "pilless...tasting...spikes..????"

    Monday, September 22, 2003

    A dreamer is your type. Seen as "not quite
    there", you see things that few do. You
    make people think, and your friends turn to you
    for insight.

    A different quiz, what strange type of person are you?
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    My babble 9/22/03
    why hello. my name is Erin. today i noticed that the bastard man in my head was quite annoying. do any of you have an annoying bastard in your head? well, mine is a bastard. he interrupts me and my thoughts and makes fun of everything i say. and he wont even tell me his name! that bastard. i think hes just jealous of me and my husband whom i love dearly. he is in hell right now. :( i miss him. he sends me dreams though, and he is hot....heheh. what am i saying? you don't even know me! i'm a dork with dorky friends and people talk to me...in my head. you don't believe me, do you? well, to bad. i will take over the world and rule your soul....MMMUUUUHAHAHAHAHAAH!!! any way, i miss my husband who is in hell. i want to go to hell. will you come with me? the bastard man in my head tells me to draw him a heart...he doesn't deserve a heart, he's a bastard. to day i woke up 32 min late and had nothing to wear except a skirt and a shirt that doesn't mach, and i had no time to make coffee, so i was rather nuts today...more so that usual. i kept talking about stealing chickens and how in my mind ostriches could fly. something with birds??? i guess my mind was on birds. well last night i had fried chicken... and ostrich is good too...fooood...Lu-Lu! *sniff* when will you come back to me Lu-Lu?! (pet name for husband in hell). i want cookies. yum.

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